derrickstonesafe

I feel like I owe it to everyone to take a moment to be transparent. I'm not sure if people notice or if I'm overly anxious about how I may be perceived, but I have not been nearly as active and present. For at least the last year I have grown to become more aware of myself. My personal beliefs, habits, mindset, and attitude have caught up with me. The things I once considered safe are no longer protecting me, but instead tearing me apart from the inside out. I do want to take a second here...

It’s that time! We are all preparing to travel and visit our loved ones for the holidays. We can all get so caught up in preparing for the drive, the meal, the conversations. All of it is important to us. First, I want you to take a deep breath and remember that everything you need is within you. You are a great caregiver. You are capable. You have proved this to yourself time after time. We are all learning together. We are doing the best with what we have. Next, I want to bring some things...

This is the last photo I took of Jaxin. Two weeks before his death. June 27-15 years ago right at this time, 5:00 am.I was picking up my daughter, Ashley from the side of the road. I had convinced her to pull over. She was sobbing so hard she couldn’t see to drive. We drove as fast as we could from Ansonia to Sidney. Terrified. It all started with a phone call a little before 5 am. Ashley was working two double shifts that weekend. 16 hour days. She was waking up to go to work when Laurenz...